Gold Day

For Rommy’s prompt at Real Toads – Love hurts

Gold Day
the afternoon you left
was a golden roux of fading autumn sunlight,
spicy oak leaves –
bright yellow, still holding on to the tree,
not yet ready to fall,
and bitter salt tears –
like the oak leaves – refusing to fall,
refusing to join the earlier faded maple leaves on the lawn.
under the trees, quiet and still,
I allow the knowledge of your leaving to permeate my being.
I am still breathing.
My heart is still beating.
The sky is still ethereal blue with purest white autumn clouds
wafting their way to the end of the horizon –
Starlings lift from the telephone wires to follow the clouds –
I realize, I will continue on my way –
leaves will change color and fall,
snow will cover the sepia winter landscape –
cherry blossoms will bud, bloom, and fade –
trees will leaf in explosions of green,
leaves will change color and fall –
Seasons and things will pass.
inside, my soul says “Oh!”
I sit as the gold day ends –
early leaf burning –
its incense drifts to heaven
autumn’s voice whispers.

21 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Sherry Marr
    Feb 15, 2018 @ 15:05:40

    “I am still breathing.” I know that feeling, the impossible-to-survive-this feeling. And yet we do. Your poem captures the devastation and heartbreak to perfection.


  2. Rommy
    Feb 15, 2018 @ 15:17:36

    The moment we realize we are still breathing and the world is still going about its business of living, even though we’ve just been devastated internally, is a powerful one. Some look to it as a sign to continue, and some see it as salt on a still bleeding wound.


  3. Laura Bloomsbury
    Feb 15, 2018 @ 15:53:49

    Pulled every string of the heart with this poem – it flowed like tears and had a stark sense of that heart stopping moment in a turning world (to paraphrase Eliot)


  4. Jim
    Feb 15, 2018 @ 17:01:16

    And life goes on, with us or without. We are, we watch, we hurt, we laugh, we are born, we live, we die. And life goes on for those still in the process. Most don’t mess with it, a few I’d like to be, leave the wire, fly away. Another few are torn off and dropped
    A nice read, Toni. Turned me on.


  5. coalblack
    Feb 15, 2018 @ 19:36:14

    Yep, the outer world just keeps on rockin’ regardless of our own emotional state.The good news is, everything one loved before will still be there when one is ready for them again.


  6. Vivian Zems
    Feb 15, 2018 @ 22:38:07

    Still breathing, heart still beating……i can relate to this, I love how you used all the elements to reflect emotions.


  7. kim881
    Feb 16, 2018 @ 03:31:04

    Autumn encapsulates the feelings we have when a lover leaves and your poem conveys them so well, Toni. I love the ‘golden roux of fading autumn sunlight’ and ‘spicy oak leaves…still holding on to the tree’ and the lines:
    ‘I am still breathing.
    My heart is still beating.
    The sky is still ethereal blue…’
    inside, my soul says “Oh!”
    I sit as the gold day ends’.
    As long as we recognise that seasons come around again, we know we’ll survive.


  8. Björn Rudberg (brudberg)
    Feb 16, 2018 @ 15:21:48

    I feel this so much… it’s like the clocks should cease to work but life still goes on… and with every breath the moments is lost… it’s unfair how nature can stil be beautiful when we are in mourning.


  9. Margaret Elizabeth Bednar
    Feb 16, 2018 @ 16:34:09

    likening tears with leaves – and then the whole blossoms “will” … “will, will…” the whole carrying on of life even as you feel a tangible “end”…


  10. Helen L Dehner
    Feb 16, 2018 @ 17:23:44

    Sad, gentle, lonely .. I feel all of this.


  11. purplepeninportland
    Feb 16, 2018 @ 20:05:48

    ‘the afternoon you left
    was a golden roux of fading autumn sunlight’

    A perfect description of that odd mixture–watching someone walk away, and the day just going on as if nothing significant happened.


  12. MNL
    Feb 20, 2018 @ 03:08:17

    love this! the stillness of pain’s quiet when it’s hard to believe the world keeps turning as it always has


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