Canicular Days

Canicular Days

“If you cannot hold me in your arms, then hold my memory in high regard. And if I cannot be in your life, then at least let me live in your heart.” – ― Ranata Suzuki

in these canicular days
it is too hot to think deeply.
so I sit on my back porch and think
shallow thoughts while sipping iced tea
with a squirt of lemon.
what do they call a pet owner
who has lost a pet,
its bones slowly returning to earth,
buried in the back yard with a stone
at its head “Fluffy”.
there are widows and widowers.
What do you call a person who
has lost a child?
how do you fill that hole
in the pocket of their heart?
what do you call a person
who has lost a lover and
cannot tell a soul?

20 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Björn Rudberg (brudberg)
    Aug 22, 2019 @ 15:33:10

    The worst sorrows are those where you are left alone… the secret lover lost is devastating.


  2. Linda Lee Lyberg
    Aug 22, 2019 @ 15:38:04

    Some grief is so deep, there is not a name for it. Beautiful Toni!


  3. msjadeli
    Aug 22, 2019 @ 15:58:40

    Toni, it looks like your mind dived deep when you weren’t looking. Your opening quote brings me solace.


  4. Lona Gynt
    Aug 22, 2019 @ 21:15:40

    Tender questions Toni. We call them all bereaved together, any hole is sufficient to know the bounds thereof, and the depth is sounded only in the thing itself, and can’t be measured from above.

    This is so quietly grieving, right along with the weight and heat of summer singing.


  5. rothpoetry
    Aug 22, 2019 @ 21:17:47

    Perhaps the losses you mention are just too painful to put an name on them!
    Well done. Love all your questions to stimulate our thinking!


  6. Victoria C. Slotto
    Aug 22, 2019 @ 23:01:05

    Poignant, melancholic write that touches the very heart of loss. Some things are just not namable.


  7. Laura Bloomsbury
    Aug 23, 2019 @ 07:38:07

    sometimes there are no words – heart wrenchingly wrought!


  8. robtkistner
    Aug 23, 2019 @ 19:05:04

    In all three of those scenarios, you call that person sad. In the case of the person who lost a child, you call them soul-strafed and devastated — because they have truly lost a part of themselves, in a perverse unnatural tragedy! The child should NEVER go before the parent. Losing a pet and a lover is extremely painful, and requires time to recover. But ultimately, you can replace a pet and a lover.


    • kanzensakura
      Aug 23, 2019 @ 19:07:26

      Yeah. Sometimes the child dies before the parent. And akthough a pet can be replaced we animal lovers will disagree.

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  9. memadtwo
    Aug 23, 2019 @ 20:46:11

    For some things there are no adequate words. (K)


  10. Ali Grimshaw
    Aug 23, 2019 @ 22:52:14

    This is a quiet grief. A sitting alone with only questions in your hands.


  11. Mish
    Aug 24, 2019 @ 11:52:32

    I love the way your thoughts run freely and I picture your contemplation over tea. The subject is deep and meaningful despite the dog days of summer. Grieving secretly would be so painful.


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