The Walk – A New Conversation – Hazakura

summer cherry

When last we visited this place,
it was during hanami.
He lay on the grass,
long legs stretched out,
eyes closed,
hands behind his head.
I sat and wafted my fan slowly,
watching the geese float
on the small pond
at the foot of the hill.
The cherry blossoms had long since
turned into thick green shade.
He asked:
Who was he?
I ignored him.
He opened his eyes.
Who was he?
My fan gently moved the air
and hid my face.
He sat up and plucked
the fan from my hands.
Who was he?
I turned to look at him.
Please return my fan, sir.
Not until you tell me, who was he?
I sighed. My Japanese is terrible.
Who was he? Who is he still?
Kare wa watashi no eien no aidearu (the love of my life).
Daitan futekina senshi (fearless warrior).
Odayakana hito (gentle man).
samurai.
Watashi no uchū (my universe).

He handed me my fan.
Your Japanese is fine.
He lay back down and closed his eyes.

And you are?
Samurai.
totemo nakano ii tomodachi (very close friend).
Watashi wa anata o sonkei (I respect you).
Anata wa watashi o shiawase na kibun ni naru (you make me feel happy).

He opened his eyes
and smiled.

Kanashimi 悲しみ – Sorrow

 Bare maple. Cold wind.

Bare cherry. Cold wind. Branches

twine but do not touch.

2013…Happy New Year – Sakura waits

sakura

sakura (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

The small cherry tree

stands bravely in the cold. Bare

and gnarled, branches spread

 

lifting to heaven

its prayer of hope and coming

spring.  I stopped and stood

 

gently touching the

cold wood.  Buds were forming

waiting to burst out

 

in their ordained time.

I wait for their brief beauty

as I would wait

 

for the hello kiss

of a lover, the smile of a

child, the embrace of

 

a friend.  There is no

doubt in this waiting.  There is

no unbelief it

 

will come.  Winter blue sky

above us.  The tree waits and

holds its faith in spring.

 

The Perfect Cherry Blossom

To the Japanese, the cherry blossom is a symbol of the ephemeral – a bud that turns into a beautiful flower and then quickly fades and the petals drop to the ground, often the same day. They are reminded that such beauty is not lasting and the beauty only remains in the memory.  It is a philosophy that permeates their culture:  Beauty that that is one blink away from perfection, a life that is one breath away from death, love that is one kiss away from fulfillment, joy that is one heartbeat away from sorrow. 

My tagline is from Issa:  “There are no strangers beneath the cherry tree.”  We are all one together in our fleeting existence; we are one as we stand beneath the tree in full bloom and gaze upward at its glorious vision of pink; we are all relieved of the rain as we stand beneath it for shelter; we gaze at the moon through its bare branches in winter and sigh at its luminous glow in the black sky. 

In “The Last Samurai”, Katsumoto sought the perfect cherry blossom.  It was only at his dying, as he looked up at the cherry blossoms above him that he said, “Perfect. They are all perfect.”  Whether at that moment, all the blossoms above him were at that perfect stage or either, he realized, that their being, in and of themselves, were perfect, I do not know.  However, that is what I prefer to think – that the blossoms, in whatever stage they were:  bud, blooming, full blown, faded….were perfect.  They were as they should be just at that moment.

 My blog identity, Kanzen Sakura, means, “perfect cherry blossom”.  At least, I hope so.  My Latin is much better than my Japanese.  If it doesn’t mean “perfect cherry blossom”, please don’t tell me.  Let me live in my illusion that I got something right.  Because you see, I feel that whatever state I am in:  joyful, mourning, pensive, angry, cynical, full of faith, blooming,  fading: I am perfect – I am in the stage I should be at that time. 

We all strive for something and rarely realize, we are as we should be; that we are all ephemeral – we are not strangers beneath the cherry tree of life.  Sometimes when I am roaming around at night outside, or doing something in the yard with my husband, I look around.  I smell the autumn-summer-winter-spring aromas.  The bare limbs-delicate pale green leaves-the lush dark green leaves-the parti-coloured autumn quilt of the trees:  I sigh deeply and tell my husband “These are the good old days.”.  He looks at me as if I was crazy and doesn’t quite comprehend, but he does understand that I have gone to a place he can’t go and chooses to smile at me instead of trying to follow.  He respects my territory under the cherry tree.

 It doesn’t mean we should stop searching or dreaming.  But sometimes…….The perfect cherry blossom?  Hold out your hand and grasp the air in front of you.  You are holding the perfect cherry blossom.

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